February 2012
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the computer people
hernameishelen:
a white, unnatural glow static, broken, spilling into a room of cloying darkness
this is what we live for the computer people
fleetingly, momentarily free
you will not find us our spirits escaped their bonds long ago
only our flesh & bones rest here. the cloying darkness consuming
our cyber salvation
this is what we live for the computer people gone.
Rebageling...
And suddenly, I'm exhausted.
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TW: Self-Harm
yourserenehighness replied to your post: Today is going to be difficult.
AND THEN YOU CAN BE ALONE WITH TUMBLR :D The best way to spend an evening
I’m going to sit in the middle of my bed, door closed, and revel in the chill of the basement. I’ll go on tumblr when I don’t think I’m in danger of scratching my face off.
Today is going to be difficult.
I just need to get to the evening, then I’ll be alone.
Blessed aloneness.
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the computer people
a white, unnatural glow static, broken, spilling into a room of cloying darkness
this is what we live for the computer people
fleetingly, momentarily free
you will not find us our spirits escaped their bonds long ago
only our flesh & bones rest here. the cloying darkness consuming
our cyber salvation
this is what we live for the computer people gone.
TW: Emotional abuse, physical abuse
Okay, so had a long chat with my brother about our abuse last night. I didn’t know he felt the same way. He just has different coping mechanisms.
Apparently my dad had a penchant for pushing him down stairs.
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I’ve repressed a lot more than I thought I had.
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I don’t remember much before I was 14, and there is a reason for that. The bits and pieces I do...
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“The moment you doubt whether you can fly, you cease forever to be able to do it.”
– J.M. Barrie (via misswallflower)
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cortisoldeficient asked: You managed to change my mind on gender in that one little spot about how you used to think you were agender. Being Androgynous does present me with that problem and its probably was because I don't experience gender so much that I felt that it must not exist in an objective, empirical sense.
Lolol and we wonder why some people accuse aces of...
Bullshit like that “I SKIP THE SEX PART AND GO RIGHT TO ~ROMANCE~” just makes us all look bad. Jesus.
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Hey hey, I'mma tell you a secret.
Once upon a time, I thought I was agender.
And I didn’t get gender, I’d handily forgotten what gender felt like (from a previous shift) and was like, lol, gender doesn’t exist. It’s something people make up cuz society says shit and whatever, they identify with that. But it’s not REAL.
Yea.
And then I smacked myself in the face and wondered why I was so much of an...
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notafraidofruins replied to your post: Lol I’m a radical feminist and I think gender is something people MADE UP FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES lolol but why would people get offended when I tell them that?
UGH i am both radical and a feminist and therefore I always want to say i’m a radical feminist BUT I CAN’T BECAUSE IT MEANS SUCH A STUPID THING
Ikr. I feel the need to separate myself from those...
Lol I'm a radical feminist and I think gender is...
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Though … now I’m absolutely exhausted.
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hrathe3rd:
hernameishelen:
hrathe3rd replied to your post: I’m trapped in my head.
Is there the chance of maybe going off and shopping/exploring by yourself? It would be a good excuse to relax alone at a tea shop for awhile or at worse, locking yourself in a public washroom.
It’s 10 PM, and I don’t want to be around anyone. I could go for a walk, but that’s dangerous since I don’t know the...
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hrathe3rd answered your question: Please, if you deal with sensory issues, please help me.
Bathrooms work for me. You can lock the door and plug your ears/do whatever you need and no one cares (long as you don’t stay there too long)
It’s the “as long as you don’t stay there too long” that gets to me. It just makes me anxious I won’t feel better in the short amount of...
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hrathe3rd replied to your post: I’m trapped in my head.
Is there the chance of maybe going off and shopping/exploring by yourself? It would be a good excuse to relax alone at a tea shop for awhile or at worse, locking yourself in a public washroom.
It’s 10 PM, and I don’t want to be around anyone. I could go for a walk, but that’s dangerous since I don’t know the...
Please, if you deal with sensory issues, please...
I cannot focus. I’m blocking out the TV with music, but it’s still noise and I can’t handle it, but it’s all I have, please recommend something I can do?
I don’t have ear plugs, or sound deadening ear phones.
Please help.
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yourserenehighness replied to your post: yourserenehighness replied to your post:…
You have all of the brilliance simmering inside of you, but you’re surrounded by dumbasses who don’t get it. But me, your Tumblr peeps, we will always be your faithful bloggers :)
I don’t do anything particularly brilliantly. Sherlock isn’t hampered by people who can’t follow his train of...
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madziontist replied to your post: Sometimes I hate you guys.
this is frustrating just to read. i wish i could give you all the hugs in the world, greglock.
*snuzzles* I wouldn’t mind that, frenemy.
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yourserenehighness replied to your post: yourserenehighness replied to your post: Sometimes…
*nuzzles* I know it won’t help, but you remind me so much of Sherlock in the awesomest of ways. You can always climb into my backpack and we’ll have adventures.
Tell me some awesome ways? I need traits to hang on to right now. I don’t know how to be a person right now.
I'm trapped in my head.
I’m unable to focus because there’s so much noise.
I’m not even alone, I haven’t been alone for two days now.
I can’t think, I can’t talk, I have too many thoughts, and I’m so unable to focus, and even if I could, I couldn’t get it out because I’m so fucking confused and unable to formulate ideas.
I.
Jhksjafld fuck
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yourserenehighness replied to your post: Sometimes I hate you guys.
*cuddles* I know the feeling. But at least there’s always Tumblr when the “real world” gets to be too much
Please get me out. I need to think, I need to be alone but I can’t, these people are here, I can’t think anymore. The TV is going and throwing off my focus and just TOO MUCH NOISE and TOO MANY PEOPLE and...
Sometimes I hate you guys.
I don’t mean in the, you all suck way. I mean in the, every single one of my friends is either mentally ill, abused, non-heteronormative or neurodivergent in some manner.
You guys get it.
When I talk about being hurt by sexual assault, you get it. When I talk to other people about sexual assault, they brush it off as if it doesn’t matter.
When I talk about mental illness,...
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ramblingsofanasexual:
I don’t know if I’m alone in this, but I’m an asexual who is not repulsed by the thought of sex. The thought of other people having sex doesn’t disgust me. I can even imagine myself having sex and not be disgusted. However… when I’m with a person, even if I am attracted to them in some way, the thought of having sex with them repulses me. I only imagine sex when there is no...
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raumlet:
steveholtvstheuniverse:
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madziontist replied to your post: madziontist replied to your post: This might be a…
Certainly! *rotates meat*
*facepalms* You’re the best frenemy.
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toranseisstrong replied to your post: So, what does Toranse say to being Toranthea? c:
OKAY. I like her.
Message Dusky. They had to leave, but Dustrade was very intent on you being Toranthea. xP
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emerald-ace replied to your post: duskandshiverrr replied to your post: This might…
Dustrade/Simoncroft OTP.
Yea, I’m kinda pleased with how that turned out. :P
So, what does Toranse say to being Toranthea? c:
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madziontist replied to your post: TW: Rape, sexual assault, rape apology
…brb rage
I know. Ugh. I just can’t.
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madziontist replied to your post: This might be a bit, ah, forward of me, but would the existence of a Madziarty be possible?
I’MMA BARBECUE YOUR SOUL, THAT’S HOW
I’ll have the chicken, please, love.
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toranseisstrong replied to your post: duskandshiverrr replied to your post: This might…
A Toranse doesn’t fit anywhere, does she?
Toranthea? Seb Toran? Toranovan? :P What character do you want, love?
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duskandshiverrr replied to your post: This might be a bit, ah, forward of me, but would the existence of a Madziarty be possible?
Who do you have so far and do you want a Dusky? =3
Greglock
Southson
Simoncroft
Mrs. Emerson
Madziarty
Emmy Hooper
YOU COULD BE DUSTRADE! And I will ship you and my brother until the end of time because I said so.
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madziontist asked: This might be a bit, ah, forward of me, but would the existence of a Madziarty be possible?
TW: Rape, sexual assault, rape apology
So like … my brother has this friend. His name is Devon. I’ve known him for a few years. He’s been slowly going crazy, and I do mean that literally. He’s an extreme extrovert, he has some kind of learning disability that made school hell for him, he cannot stand to be alone, he’s obsessed with sex and social status …
And yea, he’s going crazy.
And he has...
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mercurymillinery replied to your post: So like, that new ace article is actually pretty damn accurate.
Which one?
Among the Asexuals.
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“I come from a generation of women who forgave the men in their lives for their...”
– Claiming my space as a deserving person « It is better to speak (via toranseisstrong)
The part I hate is that they don’t get it. They don’t get it. Why am I angry all the time? Why am I so bitchy? Why is everything a confrontation? They don’t get it, and I don’t think...
So like, that new ace article is actually pretty...
Wow.
I’m pleased.
Bed.